If I were thoughts in Iris's head, I would be this:
Leave me alone. But don't stop chasing after me. I want to inflict all the pain, hurt, and sorrow you've put me through, but every time I try to do that, I end up hurting my own self.
I want you to stop calling me.
I don't want to hear your voice because I hate it.
I can't stand you anymore.
No, I don't want to meet up for coffee because the truth is, I can't stand looking at you.
But don't stop chasing after me.
I want you to get down on your knees and ask for forgiveness, but I know that the moment you do that, I'll regret it.
You say you're evolving into a man.
Really?
Where is he?
Where has he been?
Why did you allow yourself to blame me for your own mistakes?
Why are you still part of my life?
Leave me alone.
I need to shed your hurt.
I need to be somewhere, away from the world, especially you, to let go of everything you've put me through.
You've injected me with pain, insult, insecurity, and bitterness.
I need to be away from you.
You're toxic.
You're my poison.
Stop being so nice to me because it's too late.
Leave me alone.
But don't stop chasing after me.
Don't stop apologizing for everything you've put me through.
No, i don't want to meet for a coffee because your face is my worst nightmare.
But don't stop...
Don't stop...
Suffer...
Suffer...
2 comments:
Funny how people want others to suffer continously because of something they did to hurt them once upon a time... Even if they didn't intentionally cause the pain. Funny.
sometimes i think that if we don't let go entirely, the pain will never go away. but... in saying that, one also has to learn to forgive because if we don't, then we are only giving in to the other person or to what hurt us in the beginning. hope that makes sense.
love is a strange creature, but i think it's our life's duty to conquer love... for love is what's left when we let go of everything we don't need.
i also think that men, in particular, love the chase. maybe this man wants this woman because he cant have her, but as soon as he might get her, he could turn around and start the same thing over again and just hurt her one more time. is it worth that?
but.. in saying this, ppl can change. i do know this for a fact.
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